hidy-hi everyone!

oh man, i gotta stop this 'once in a while' updating thing~it takes forever to update!!

but yeah, life's gotten much better as of late. remember that lateslip thing i was talking about? hehe! i don't really have that problem anymore. and you know why? i dropped geometry. amen! math is mostly where i got em, and now that i don't: bingo! problem solved. i still have to take the first half of it next year to get my 2 and a 1/2 credits to graduate. but i get the first part now, easy-peasy! wow.. it's like a breath of fresh air. *breaths in* beautiful. that reminds me of the weather here lately- hot and humid. perfect! torneado season here we come! ahh, i guess it's from being raised in oklahoma, but i love this time of year. oh man, and so do our weather cast at news channel 4. they have their new toy doplar with a million watts of power (which is really good and all, but man, enough bragging) and they can't wait to use it. *nods* and two days from today (monday) on may 3rd is the 7th year aniversy of the may 3rd torneado. yeah, creative name, i know. it was sad, like 48 people died from this thing. they call it an F5, but in all reality the damage was MUCH worse- they just didn't want to change the hole fagita scale on one torneado. (it was estimated to be high F6 low F7) snots. it's sad. i think the ribbon color for it was yellow, so i'll probably have one on my car thingy-dobber-dill soon. well, back to the subject of me. me! hehe. yeah, other than school life's pretty good. i'm gonna on another mission trip this year with school. back to juarez, mexico! mmmmm, i can't wait to dig in on the chiuauah cheese. (please forgive all misspellings) and stefi and hannah or going, too, so it's gonna rock! like i mentioned earlier, i'm also attending JSB, the junior retreat up at camp hudgings, a camp with my church, hopefully getting a job, (a daycare would be nice) and working on all this schoolwork stuff so i can pass and become a senior. yippee.. i can't wait for summer tho. the pool in our neighborhood should be opening in mid-may. yatta! well, i've forgotten most of the stuff i was gonna say.. so i'll say goodbye instead.

babye!

ps: to Sir, with love. 'tis a great old movie~ check it out!

pss: to me, talk about mr. bullard next time. you'll so forget!

oh my, it's been awhile again.. oops...

ahh, anyways.

it's really hard to explain life right now. maby thats just teenage misfortunes, but it's still so odd.

school is pressuring as ever. theres this grade reduction thing for not turning in homework that we call lateslips and not bringing it in signed with the work and all, you have to go to the office to speak to the secondary headmaster. well too many times (4) and they take off 2 points off your final grade. and so on each time afterwards. well, i went down there enough to get 17 (17? how does that work out?) points off my final grades and i screwed myself over. but the angel that the sec. headmaster is, he's given me another chance. i can't go to the office. also, jsb is this year. that's junior-senior banquet. it's the equivilent of a public school's prom ~ but with only junior and seniors.. and no dancing... ok yeah, i'm pretty sure i've explained this before. anyways, i got my dress and all the girls are.. well not pushy about it, just anxious to be asked. and it's really getting on my nerves. i want to smack them when they go off on their soap box about so and so hopefully asking them.. and most want zach bowen to ask them. he's a teddy bear, cute and all, sweet.. ok, i like him like that.. but not like: 'omg, lets be together and i love you forever!' he's just a cool guy. but allota the girls are 'fighting' to get him. and kaitlen has always been open about her likeing him, go kates! ahem, what was i saying? oh, their girls are ticking me off. and all this starts with school sucking. i feel so stressed lately, it just sends me to tears, and thats annoying. then there are those tests from the summer.. i have so many left and i can't drive to school without finishing them, and i really need to have some freedom of driving myself around places. speeking of freedom, another thing on my mind is leaving. like, turning 18 and going to college. i want to go to an IT school in NYC and i plan on moving out right when i turn 18. plans plans.. i plan to. the school is really trying to pressure us into college right now. BJU even came to speak to us about comming to their college. (the junior and senior classes) i've got to go to some kinda college, i'm just unsure what college and if i can even get in! my school grades suck, but my explorer and psat grades are great, like 96.4 and 89.6 or something like that. i hope i can get in.. yar, that reminds me. i need to take the act in.. may? march? april? ouch, i gotta find out when that is. i'm really relying on those to get me into college. God, help me. this is making me feel so old. i'm only 16, graduating at 17, and i'm off on my own. i think the thought of growing up is starting to scare me. i really want to be independant on my own, but i'm afraid i wont make it. i gosta rely on God, and do my best. but man im frightened of it... all alone in NY.. lesigh... it'll be good for me. just a year and a half and i'll be able to cool off a little. just go to college, get a job, and start my life. (hopefully slip a cat in there too, and maby a boy toy) wow... i really like this soapbox i'm standing on. hehe, i'll rant out to the cyber-world my problems and smile at the one i'm currently residing in.

a better note? i'm joining something called Improv Everywhere. there's a faction starting here in oklahoma. their a group that does silly stuff (that we call missions) to make people laugh. did u hear of the U2 rooftop impersonation? that was them. or the recent 'subway-no pants scandle'?  that was them, too. i can't wait to start some stuff up here. we gots about 4-6 people in it, and 3 of us centralized. i can't wait to do our first mission!

wow... i'll shut up now and let you go on talking to yourself.

bye?

dang! i havn't updated since august 6.. like i've already started school since then!  so.. what's happened... um..

well, my mom bought a new car, a pontiac bonnerville. it used to be like an old peoples car, but they re-invented them so they are more sporty and plush. <3

also, i got my mom's malibu. it's five years old but in the condition of like a 1 or 2 year one.

i <3 it!

well, i'll update later.

jennys coming over and i'm in economics at school XP

games tonight

bye

iiblackrosesii

hi all.

my cpu still hates me so i'm having trouble actually posting here.

lucky me.

so anyways.. i'm going in for my testing on monday.

i've got so much to study right now it's scary. a full years worth of stuff in two classes! > <

but they are two of my fave clases: bible and english <3

yah... i'm weird.

and on tuesday i'm going out to lunch with my good friend stefani and my alg. teacher mrs. llewelyn. (i don't think i spelled it right) we planned it even before school was out. XD but we're just going to sonic. yummy drinks!!

other than going to the post office with meh grama-z, i've done nothing but work on my school work for the past month. yeah, how fun is that.

well, i've been shopping alot.

school is just so demanding with what kind of clothes we wear and all. so it takes a while to get the perfect length skirt that will still be the perfect length even after 8 months of growing and about a billion washes. but i've found really cute ones. (even two silk ones!)

but we've yet to buy any tops. i bought a nice sweater back in july four school.. which was weird. who the heck sales a sweater in july?apparently the one and only wal-mart! lols

but i'm excited for school. i'll be back in my class this year (if i pass these tests on monday) with all my old friends and i'll be having a junior locker! hopefully i'll get one of the nice tall thin ones. not the short wide ones we had.

i'll also be back in my enviroment.

being who i am, i spend more time at school than i do at home. between school, hanging around before and after in the teachers lounge and computer rooms, and diferent events that we have there i practicly live there! but i love it. some public school kids who come don't like it 'cuz of the rules. but i've been there my whole school life, so i'm way beyond used to it. (not to mention i know the floor plan like my own room)

it's really gonna be sad when i leave. i only have two years to go. and it's really got me torn! i love my school and wish to go live in one of the back rooms of the upper auditorium. but on the other hand, i wanna get out of oklahoma and go attend NYU in ny. i <3 new york, new york!

ahem.. anyways.

this year will prob. be my junior year.. so i'll get to attend junior-senior banquet! it's just like a prom.. but with no dancing.. and were at this REALLY spiffy, uptown place for dinner and some fun stuff. the real fun is the after parties. which unlike most ones, are clean and fun. i think we're heading over to clancy's house again for another party. we always do our class parties there: it's big (she's rich) and she has a pool. (and she's willing <-big part of it) it'll be interesting to seen what we do come up with though. the biggest part of jsb is the formal dresses. i've come up with a simple design that i wanna go get custom made for me since i'm big breasted and waisted. (waisted.. sounds like i'm drunk XD) but it's pretty.. like it's black with red undertones with the second fabric underneath thats red with black undertones. i'll upload a pic of it to my deviant art acount.

well, i guess i'll shut up now.

u know, let ur voices go back to talking to you now.

ja!

hey there.

i know i've been gone a while > > my computer has trojans on it, (that blocks this site most of the time) and i can't get rid of em!

but anyways.

nothing really interesting has happened.

isn't that the usuall?

shut up.

roar..

well, i've aquired another voice in my head. that makes..

4 now, including you.

yeah.. anyways; it's always saying the obvious and doing it's best to get on my nerves.

the dumb voice is driving me crazy!

but on to a happier note: i got a new moniter!

the old thing was just that, old. it was fading on and off and was plain annoying.

not to mention huge.

so my mom broke down and we went to best buy and picked up a 17'' flat screen moniter. (i am in <3)

stupid addware/spyware/trojans...

also, i'm getting my hair cut on saturday.. at 7 am! X(

i'm getting it shorter and a little bit more choppy. might post a pic of it.

don't i get a say on the matter?

my hair, your problem. so be quiet!

my church youth group is going on a mission trip in like 4 days.. i wish i was going. it's in san deago or something like that.

i just don't like california, to much un-like oklahoma.

palm trees... *shivers*

... *shivers*

jacob at church said his trip was completly paid for from all the fund raising they did. (ex:fireworks stand, garage sale)

i should of gone..

palm trees...

i know, i know. it's best i'm not. i'd be unhappy. > <

well, i'm straining my mind for interesting things.. but nothings comming up.

*snickers*

*glares* so i guess i'll go now.

all 4 of me...

ja!

i'm back!!!

saltillo was uber fun, and really nice! it wasn't that hot at all, only about 85 degrees. it was windy, too. i have fallen in LOVE with saltillo!!

i won't give u a play by play on what i did, but i'll give u the main idea.

before we left, Jenni, her dad and mom, and my mom and i all ate at mandrins chinese food. it was great as usuall. 

later, we left from school on our bus at 8 o' clock exactly. the road there wasn't that bad, but it wasn't very cool when we tried to doze off that night. it just didn't help that they stopped every 2 hours at a gas station. XP 

we woke up the next day to fast food breakfasts and a stop in the middle of nowhere to switch busses. ((did u know that mexico doesn't allow anything bigger than a 16 passenger van? (and 18 wheelers) ))

the trip across the border was hell, litteraly. it was THAT hot. 3 hours just to get a stamp on our visas. it sucked. but another mission group that was there before us was still there when we left. i feel sorry for them.. something about there being alotta foriegn transfers in their group, and they were missing a peice of paperwork. a peice!

well anyways, we get across and finally make it to our little town right outside of saltillo. and when i say little, i mean little. probly only about 35-45 actual homes. we were up on a little hill like thing. it was weird, 'cuz we were in the middle of nowhere! mountians in a desert. blach.. 'twas so dry, but it was cool and windy. so it compensated.

the first few days i don't remember that well for some reason, but i know we did some vacation bible schools and went and helped out at Damen and Delight's house up in saltillo. it's absolutly huge! two levals and about 15 thou. square feet by my perception. it was awsome. and nearly everything they had was donated to them: fine leather furniture, building materials for their new home (about 20 meters away from their old little one), an above ground pool, and even a mercedees benz! they are some blessed people!!

on tuesday, they devided our group up into three groups: digging trenches for pipes behind the dorms, laying a rock pathway around a childrens home they were building up on a hill, and picking up rocks. being the lucky person that i am, i was chosen to join the rock finders group. it sounds easy enough.. for the first hour. by hour 3 i'm about to just throw all rocks off of the first mountain i see. we did it ALL DAY! mr. Bullard (my school headmaster) came up with a silly quote. u know 'water, water everywhere but not drop to drink' ? well he made: 'rocks, rocks everywhere but no the rock i need.' because for about the first 5 hourse, we picked up the WRONG kind of rock. DEATH TO ROCKS!!!

Wednesday was culture day. we went out to a little souvenear shop up in saltillo, then a silver shop, some really nice catholic church, and the market. the market wasn't as good as last years 'cuz it wasn't as big and they wern't willing to barter that much. i guess it's cuz most people around there are rich. (in mexico standards) i tried to go down 5 pesos on a 30 peso bag, and they guy wouldn't do it! that's not even 10 percent!

well anyways, we got back a little after noon to eat. after the food, we went and picked up even MORE rocks because they decided that they needed even bigger rocks than the ones they asked for earlier. again i say.. death to rocks!!

later that evening the electritions came and gave us better electric hook ups... so we could have fans! needless to say i slept SO well that night. all the other nights it was just so hot and stuffy on the top bunks. XP

on thursday we drove up to auquafria, montery to help out this church we were associated with and do a vbs/medical clinic. and that's when hell broke loose for me.

i hadn't been feeling that great; there had been some sorta of bug or virus going around. just a 24 hour one.. but that's long enough to be misserable. but i wasn't feeling that bad as to not to go to auquafria. we dropped off the painting group about 30 mins. away from us and went to their 'church' they were building. (it had no roof, thus the '-') a little after we had gotten there, they asked us to go hand out tracks announcing the vbs/medical clinic that we were having. and for some reason (unbeknownst to me at the time) i started to cry really hard, and couldn't breath easily and such. my group kinda freaked out and asked me whats wrong. that's all i remeber for that time, but i was later told that i kept saying that i wanted to go back to the church. like, that's all i would say other than 'nothing' when asked whats wrong. but apparently i over exerted myself and had a stress attack over it. dr. Wright (jessica's dad who came on the trip) said i had a pulse of 180, when it's usually around 50-70. so they freaked out. later that night at our 'share time' (it was us sitting in a badly made circle in the dinning chairs talking and singing and such) i ran off to the bathrooms and ralphed about 3 times. it was horrible, i had to clean it up myself!

so apparently i got what some of the others were getting. thus my sick story ends.

but anyways, we packed that night and left at around 7:25 the next moring to get across the border to stay the night in san antonio. we got there late afternoon and got to our little hotel/motel dobber dill and took REAL showers in REAL tubs! YAH FOR WATER PRESSURE! we later went down to the river walk and ate dinner. the river of the river walk wasn't that impressive. it was just a little larger than ours here in OK. but the actuall walk part of it was awsome. tons and tons of trees and flowers and mini waterfalls and dinning places and a full sized mall! that was so cool! i ate at the ibiza. it was good but the tip was 18% and my 18 $$ meal was like 23.71 or something. the waitress sucked and i think blake (sitting at another table) might of got her fired! (she deserved it, she was so horrible)

well, we got home on sturday at about 6 sharp. i came home, ate fetachini alfredoo, watched 'phantom of the opera', and went to bed.

i've been so tired, we were just so busy! even tho it doesn't really sound like it.

so ok, enough about the trip.

i just gotta say this before i go tho.. my mom gave me a choice between a cpu moniter, digital camera, and an ipod mini for my birthday. and i'm SO getting a blue ipod mini tonight!!! i don't get to use it until the 23 tho.. 9 more days!!

well, enough blabbing. i'll go now.

grapa! (rag)

-ja

since i havn't been on in a while, i havn't mentioned it; but, i'm leaving for saltillo, mexico at 8:00 this evening. it's a mission trip with my school and were going to this childrens hospital of the mountain in the middle of nowhere to help them and do VBS in teh city. i'm really excited about this one because were're going really deep into mexico where the stuff you hear about actually happens. (like the guns, cops, deaths, murders, ect.) last year we only went into juarez, which is only about 15 miles in. so we didn't see too much stuff. but it was still a kick in the head that made us realize that yes, we have the good life in america, even if you live on the streets.

before we leave, jenny and her dad and me and my mom are all eating chinese out at mandrins. (they have THE BEST ever food) that'll be about six o'clock and all so we'll have about an hour and a half before we are hurded around the bus for prayer for our safety and for teh trip. (at about 7:30) this is jen's first mexico trip with the school, but she's been on 'em before. like last year, she went to romania! it's like 3 american dollars to their 1 dollar. i love it. mexico's money transfer rate isn't that bad yet, but it's close. so everything is like dirt cheap. i can't wait to go shopping!

and i feel so proud of myself this year, i only have one carry on, one side satchel purse, one bag full of shoes and one suit case. last year i had all of that plus an aero blow up bed and a foot pump. but this year, the place were going to is providing thin matresses for us to sleep on. ah, the mission trip life! XD

it's really amazing how much fun these things are, and it's really cool how we can actually see the change that we made when we left. i really love mission trips and can't wait to go load the bus for our trip to saltillo, mexico!

...but first a shower.

-Ja!

<3 <3 <3

so yesterday we started gaundi (the movie). it's pretty cool cuz gaundi's like this rebel.. but in a quiet, break the rules kinda way. it's non-violent so he gets away with alot! ok, now my 10th grade class has taken some notes on him and are currently watching the movie, and it's inspired us an all: we've started a non-violent rebelion against a new rule thingy at school that's really dumb! the seniors are picking our class t-shirts. we submit our entries and all, but they get to choose what WE wear! it's small, but that's the best thing to start out with. so now the entire class has signed it and were going to bring it down to the secondary headmaster's office and present it to him with our list of complaints and changes we want about it. i myself would like to get MORE signitures by having more petitions in each grade. ('cept the seniors of course, that just be weird) if this thing works (and even if it doesn't) we want to move one to some more changes, for example: any music listened to on school grounds has to have a distinctive melody.. or something like that. u can't even listen to christian pop! and we hate our friday pants.. theyr'e strait leg kahkis.. *shivers* and there are a lot of things we would LOVE to change. ok, i've really rambled about this enough. (and made enough spelling mistakes to give my english teacher a heart attack. not that i want to.. hehe)

so anyways, in science we filled air balloons with gas and held them over a bunsen burner and let it blow in a burst of flame! our's was really big and touched the ceiling! too bad it didn't set it a flame... havn't checked it yet for a char. it was really fun! i can't get over it, and don't know y. maby it's cuz i'm a pyro...

yeah, so yah! ok, i found a movie-documentary called the 'YES MEN' that's cool. its these three guys who impersonate the world trade orginization and other tricks. they made up this crap about recycling... crap as hamburger patties for 3rd world countries, and all these really important people (graduates, harvard, ect.) were like: 'totally, yeah! what a way to feed those unfoutunate 3rd worlders!' paraphrased of course.. and then they went to a college to speak and those freshmen and such were like: 'what a load of bull!' it kind of says something about the worlds politics. brainwashed much? another funny thing they did was take barbies with talking chips and action guy barbie things with talking chips and switched them. so you get barbie going: 'let's go kick bad-guy butt!' and 'it's time to save the world!' and mega army dude going: 'your'e my best friend!' and 'wanna go shopping?' the weirdest part was that the kids LOVED them! i myself would like a buff bod guy asking me if i'd like to go shopping.. hehe!

well, i guess i'll shut up now. my ranting get's too random and weird for me sometimes too.

so... go eat some fruit or something.

-Tonya

... : )